Halloween after loss is horrible. I hate driving around my neighbourhood this time of year. My eyes just can’t stop looking at the graves, skeletons and gruesome heads coming out of the ground on my neighbours’ lawns. Do you have these types of decoration on your front porch? Maybe you should consider that they might […] Read more…
Zack and Jayden’s birthday came and went this year with a quiet sadness. Not as heartbreaking as other years and I’m not sure why. Is it that 5 years has passed since we last celebrated together and the pain is less than it was at 4 years, 3 years, 2 years, 1 year? It’s been […] Read more…
A precious little boy has died, in the most unimaginable way. A horrible tragedy has ended his short life at only 3 years old. Elijah’s mother won’t be able to rock her sweet boy to sleep or see him grow up. She’ll have to say goodbye and find a way to move on through life […] Read more…
Having a tough time again this year, when the most beautiful email arrived in my inbox. The incredible minister at my parent’s church in Fenelon Falls (and having just recently baptized Jayden there, it now feels like OUR church too) sent this prayer, just for me and for our family. So, I wanted to share […] Read more…
So many days I keep the feeling of sadness and loss bottled up. I hide it from the boys, I hide it from Paul, I hide it from my parents and friends, I hide it at work and I even try to hide it from myself, but it’s always there. Grief is a part of […] Read more…
Dear Special Needs Mom in the Mall, I hope you don’t think that I was staring at your son because I thought he looked different. I hope you don’t think that I starting talking to him to be rude or unkind. I hope you don’t think that the way I smiled at him was odd […] Read more…
On Christmas morning, I had expected very little in the way of surprises. I mean, after 13 years of marriage, we usually buy the gifts with each other and then wrap them for December 25th. What happened after all the other gifts were opened, was beyond my wildest dreams. Paul had commissioned an amazingly talented woman, […] Read more…
I never want to forget the signs around me. It’s when I need them most and when I ask Zack for them, that they have been revealed to me. I write them here to preserve my memory, to share with all of you who may need to believe that signs exist, and to make it […] Read more…
Last night, we started to decorate for fall and Halloween – my dislike for gravestones on a front lawn is no surprise– but Jayden looked through a few decorations and lost it. When I asked him what upset him so much, it was the gravestone decoration that we had from years ago- the one I […] Read more…
I’m a hugger. It’s just who I am, and if I’m being honest, I’m kind of known for being a good one! If I look back on the last few years, there are certainly hugs that I will never forget….this story is about one of those. While some other moms might be choosing to share […] Read more…