Halloween after loss is horrible. I hate driving around my neighbourhood this time of year. My eyes just can’t stop looking at the graves, skeletons and gruesome heads coming out of the ground on my neighbours’ lawns. Do you have these types of decoration on your front porch? Maybe you should consider that they might […] Read more…
A precious little boy has died, in the most unimaginable way. A horrible tragedy has ended his short life at only 3 years old. Elijah’s mother won’t be able to rock her sweet boy to sleep or see him grow up. She’ll have to say goodbye and find a way to move on through life […] Read more…
Marriage is tough. It can be work, and it can be fun. It’s full of love, ups and downs, laughter and some days, tears. Today is our 14th wedding anniversary and actually the 19th year of knowing each other. We met on July 22nd, 1995 on a sorority boat cruise and that night we fell […] Read more…
Last year, I found the words to share how I was thinking about another year going by without Zack turning another year older. This year, the words escape me. Like, it’s the first year all over again. Maybe it’s because it’s now been 3 birthdays since Zack’s last one. Maybe it’s because I see how […] Read more…
As many of you know, Zack and I were asked to be SickKids ambassadors (read Zack’s story on their site) over 3 years ago- we were asked to speak at events with Zack by my side, participate in commercials promoting the lottery, fly to the North Pole to meet Santa and attend cool events helping the […] Read more…
Zack’s room was the place where he and I would rock the night away. The place where I tried to get a few minutes of sleep between humming the Elmo song, during his 2am episodes.It’s the place where he would sit in his bouncing chair and get his meds and his gtube feed each night […] Read more…
On Saturday we planned a family day at Wonderland…it was a rare day that Paul wasn’t working and we were all looking forward to a great day together. We had even talked the boys into going on their FIRST roller coaster! We packed our bags, hid our snacks in the backpack, spritzed with sunscreen and […] Read more…
(I haven’t been able to write the very last day in two years, but this year, I really wanted to preserve the memories. I want those horrible and painful hours to live here on the pages, and not in my head or on my shoulders. The truth is that those days seemed like weeks and they […] Read more…
Zack loved the boat! at Nana and Poppa’s My parents arrived just after midnight and were escorted in a golf cart through security and customs- thanks to my sister. They told me later, that when they saw the cart for them- they thought that they were too late, that Zack had died. They both […] Read more…
It was just after midnight, the doors opened and a Anesthesia doctor, Brian Kavanagh, appeared- a man I had never met before, but will never forget. He calmly walked over and asked us to sit down, while he sat on the table in front of us (the photo shows the table and blue bench where we sat- […] Read more…