Last night, we started to decorate for fall and Halloween – my dislike for gravestones on a front lawn is no surprise– but Jayden looked through a few decorations and lost it. When I asked him what upset him so much, it was the gravestone decoration that we had from years ago- the one I […] Read more…
I’m a hugger. It’s just who I am, and if I’m being honest, I’m kind of known for being a good one! If I look back on the last few years, there are certainly hugs that I will never forget….this story is about one of those. While some other moms might be choosing to share […] Read more…
One day before I enter another decade. I’ve been thinking so much about what this number or this birthday really means and it’s led me to reflect on my 30s and what they really meant, all that I experienced and what new perspective I can bring into this new decade and maybe new phase of […] Read more…
I’ve been around babies since Zack died. I’ve seen them, they’ve come to my house and I’ve even attended baby showers.All of those situations have been very hard for me.The truth is that I have had such a difficult time with anything baby since Zack’s been gone. Not only because I’ve lost a child, but […] Read more…
Yesterday, at a lunch with my contact at the York Central (Mackenzie Health) Foundation, I heard sad news of their plans to move the pediatric unit, only months after we celebrated the recognition and not even 6 months after the rooms were all painted. It turns out that with more babies being born at our […] Read more…
Zack’s room was the place where he and I would rock the night away. The place where I tried to get a few minutes of sleep between humming the Elmo song, during his 2am episodes.It’s the place where he would sit in his bouncing chair and get his meds and his gtube feed each night […] Read more…
Our Blurb photo book arrived!!!! This Christmas, I decided to make a special book about Zackie. All of our favourite family photos with him, some silly shots, photos from his therapy and with his loving brothers. I spent several nights uploading all of the photos and using the templates to create the perfect layouts, background […] Read more…
A week has passed since 20 moms lost their precious children in the most horrific end to their short lives. There was no peace for these children or their parents, no chance to hold them when they were scared or comfort them in their arms when they were taking their last breath. To add to […] Read more…
…is you! While I’m singing this song and thinking of the son I lost, so many other women are singing it about the baby they are aching to have. While one of us is a mother and one is a “mother” in her heart, the one thing that we have in common is the aching […] Read more…
It started way back in the office at the Footprints Therapy. Zackie was going to see his Osteopath for a practise that I still don’t fully understand, but totally and completely value. The therapist told me that I reminded her of another mom- Dana Florence…a mom who had triplets with cerebral palsy but that in the face […] Read more…