“I’m sorry your brother died” is sometimes all that I can say to Jayden when we are snuggling late at night. Some nights the words just escape me and I can’t tell him the things that I should say or even the things that might comfort him the best. Some nights I just have to listen, […] Read more…
It started in my inbox with my monthly Grief Watch Newsletter arriving late yesterday afternoon. I scrolled down to find a quote that truly spoke to the way I feel as a bereaved mother. The way I feel every day. The silent pain and sadness that I hold in my heart, while I work, while I’m alone, […] Read more…
It’s been just over a month since I posted this on my Facebook wall; Post by Heather Oliver-Hamilton. The outpouring of support and advice has been truly overwhelming and given us so much hope. If I think back to when Zack needed help, I wanted it all for him. I became ‘Warrior Mama’ and I […] Read more…
Dear Special Needs Mom in the Mall, I hope you don’t think that I was staring at your son because I thought he looked different. I hope you don’t think that I starting talking to him to be rude or unkind. I hope you don’t think that the way I smiled at him was odd […] Read more…
Post by Sarah Taylor. So this morning, my dear friend Sarah had a post on her Facebook wall (open comments above). A post that I see her write regularly about the importance of being a donor. A topic that is close to her heart (and lungs) and the reason she could marry her love, Keith, […] Read more…
Another year goes by and the Christmas tree is up. So is our new Elmo decoration. The lights are twinkling, the carols are playing, the ornaments tell a story of our life and there are several branches adorned with Elmos for Zack. And yet, I just can’t find that spirit again this year. It’s been […] Read more…
Last year, I found the words to share how I was thinking about another year going by without Zack turning another year older. This year, the words escape me. Like, it’s the first year all over again. Maybe it’s because it’s now been 3 birthdays since Zack’s last one. Maybe it’s because I see how […] Read more…
It’s happening….I’m starting to feel and look like ME again. That’s the cool part of how I’m feeling- I really don’t feel pressure to be anyone else or look like Kim Kardashian- instead, I just want to be a me where my head and my body seem to “fit”. I’ve been feeling so detached from my […] Read more…
I’ve been around babies since Zack died. I’ve seen them, they’ve come to my house and I’ve even attended baby showers.All of those situations have been very hard for me.The truth is that I have had such a difficult time with anything baby since Zack’s been gone. Not only because I’ve lost a child, but […] Read more…
Yesterday, at a lunch with my contact at the York Central (Mackenzie Health) Foundation, I heard sad news of their plans to move the pediatric unit, only months after we celebrated the recognition and not even 6 months after the rooms were all painted. It turns out that with more babies being born at our […] Read more…